CD2

Not too much to write on the fertility front, CD2 is pretty boring. Actually going through CD1-CD7 is like watching paint dry.

Day hasn't been too interesting, projectile vomit here, horrible red diaper rash there, you know, normal 'I run a daycare' stuff.

H is making me Chicken Tortilla Soup,

I made the tortilla strips ;)

*Update, 2 of our kids are on a Dr recommended home watch for whooping cough.

CD1

AF is here. Happy I can move on, pissed I'm not pg. Continuing my other blog, reading/reviewing books for another website, and working out.

I had a sick infant in daycare today, like really sick, didn't sleep, had a hard time eating, pretty much screamed in my ear ALL DAY. Sure I was and am super exhausted and a little burnt out, but for the first time I felt worse for this baby than I did for me having to endure her wrath.

I am usually a super.... selfish person. It was weird and nice and a little refreshing to care about someone more than myself.


Don't get me wrong, when her mom picked her up I was happy and singing her praises, also wishing her luck. Not that I would mind staying up with my own child sick at night, or enduring her screams all day - well - not as much.

CD30

3 days late. Today I am 3 days late.

Started liiight brown spotting on Sunday (just when I wipe) and here we are on Tuesday and no AF and 3 negative HPT's. I am....well I'm pissed.

Just got news of another friend who is pregnant, wasn't trying, not even in a relationship. I know I'm a bitch for pointing that out but I just don't see how it's fair. She deserves her baby, she deserves all the happiness that her baby will bring, her baby has a purpose and that makes me so happy for her and the new life she created.

But it makes me furious for me. Absolutely angry. It has been 6 months (going on 7) since my miscarriage. I have yet to see a second pink line. Sometimes I feel hopeful, like maybe there was a purpose to the miscarriage and maybe 'our baby' isn't ready to meet us yet, or can't fulfill it's purpose yet.

Some days - like today - I want to meet god, and smack him for putting me through this pain.

My due date with little Blue was January 25th. I feel that this month will be hell. I wish AF would get her shit together and just show already so that I can get on to a new cycle with new hope, instead of being stuck in this waste of a cycle waiting game.

Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.

CD27

13 DPO I think. My OPK had O on Saturday Dec 18th, I didn't get O pains or crazy CM until Dec 19th and I had O pains at 6pm.

Doubt that I am pg, took a HPT (dollar store) yesterday before I went to my NYE party, more like a "to drink or not to drink" test (from now on will be called TDONTD test), any-who, in the morning that puppy was negativo.

I haven't retested today because, well, I am hungover from said NYE party, and I don't want to ruin the first day of 2011 with tears or frustration.

Of course I have gotten 3 stories from 3 different friends who took their own TDONTD test and all were negatives, they went and partied hard and of course 3 days later got their positive test. Blah blah blah.

We went to SoCal on Friday and picked up some wholesale phone cases, luckily I have been keeping myself occupied listing them on eBay and stalking that website, instead of babycenter.

 One of my favorite of the cases we bought.

I do not know when I will test again, it won't be today. We are off until Jan 4th, I am sure pure boredom will have me testing either Sunday or Monday.

CD24

Welcome to my crazy! Today I used fmu to take another opk. 11dpo

Looks darker in person blah blah.

Woke up without sore boobs like I had yesterday but with nausea. Ate a fantastic breakfast which I will have to work off later or my wii fit will ask for an explanation for the weight gain again. Breakfast consisted of Belgian waffles (made in my awesome new waffle maker), eggs and this awesome Costco applewood smoked bacon *die*.

Waffle maker/Waffle:

I am 5'6 + 116lbs.

-I ate the eggs & bacon too quickly to take a picture. Like a flash they were gone...

CD23

Maybe I should have started on CD1 of my next cycle, instead I will update you on all happenings since then.

I started AF December 6, 2010, lasted for 5 days, the last being spotting. TMI? Yeah that's how this blog is rolling.

Should have ovulated December 18th on CD13.

My cycle has been a little wonky since my miscarriage (7w5d) in June.

I bought OPK's this month and sort of used them, I will do better next cycle.

2 days ago I started taking my (from my pregnancy) leftover Prenavite (prenatal vitamins) and decided to start taking L-Arginine in powder form from Forever Young.

My cycle has been approximately 29, 28 & 25 days long the past 3 months.

I have started (last week) using my Wii fit. Last night I did 1:02 hours of strength training, yoga, and the super hula hoop game. I am a champion at the hula hoop game.

I was meditating during O this month, I need to start again.

Today I feel AF like symptoms but that's really just me looking to deep into my symptoms. I feel this blog will help me keep track of all my crazy, and maybe be a little therapeutic.